Pain will Follow

Pain will follow
I step forward into the days after tomorrow
And must realize
That pain will follow

I will watch my parents wither away
Until nothing is left but inevitable tears
Nothing is left but lonely rooms
Where memories dance
In the light of the sun

All my life, I would never imagine
Never dared to imagine
The absence of these beautiful souls
The ones who brought me to be the man I am
The ones who made me the boy I was

How their aromas will haunt me
Unleashing memories by the millions
Fluttering through me in swarms
Each wing a shard of glass
To remind me of the promises I couldn’t keep

But they are here now
Love is here
Their hands are here
To hold me aloft

But I know…
Nothing can prepare me
For the pain
Make no mistake
Pain will follow.

I Fly Tonight

I fly tonight
But with shadows around me
My soul has been shaken
By the love that has sprung within me

Till now it was craving
To be touched
And known
And now
It breathes life into me

My heart stops
When I think of that moment
Of utter softness
And complete warmth
And yet
It hurts when I think of
The confusion brought forth
By one… single… kiss

Oh, the joy
The pain
For I never wanted you to
Be in this place
A place where your heart
Fights to grip reality
Fights to grip certainty
Of the right and the wrong

And yet this is so right
Never before has someone
Fit so perfectly in my arms
Never before has someone so perfectly
Touched my soul

Such perfection in every inch of you
Has me writhing to hold you
So very close
And make everything right
Make your demons disappear
Make your heart
One with mine
Make one our tears
Let our kiss last the ages
That are counted in the moments
You are not here
If only this night would never end
If only time was on our side
If only such walls did not separate us
If only you could fly by my side
As I fly now
With these shadows around me

Here to Stay

It’s here to stay now
There’s no running away now
No more crying into pillows
No more screams

It is now in every step
Every breath, every withered syllable
Of lame consolation
It has filled me now
And become the stuff I am made of

Let me explain
I have not always been there
For many years,
Alas
My whole life
I have held love to my soul
And given it so freely

And with every year that goes by
Every kiss that says goodbye
Every soft hand that leaves my palm
Takes a little of my love away

Now all I have is emptiness
Its here to stay now
There’s no running away now
No more crying into pillows
No more screams
Only empty words
From these empty lips
Only an empty heart
Begging for a complete kiss